IM-THE-UGLY-ONE
18-10-2003, 05:07
I'm a boy, seemed like a young boy because I'm not over 18 yet, though, i can say I'm really mature and conscious. I'm gentlemanlike also. I know what friends i should company with, and what friends i should go away them. I'm a well-mannered boy in people's eyes, and especially in girls'eyes. To girls, the gentle and polite acts i was giving them, which made them be really pathetic and appreciative. However, even i treat all girls equally from outside looking, deep down in my heart, i know i really hate and having completely antipathy toward mischievous girls or tomboys, also i know i dont like talkative girls either. That's seemed an usual thing for girls to being talkative; however, i dont know why i cant admit it. They would talk all the time and talk all about stupid things, talking loudy which bothers other people sitting around them, who were seriously trying to focus on studying. I felt uncômfortable when i was witnessing that. In my eyes, girls are beautiful and attractive when they are showed as themselves, no making up their face as witches or clowns, or dressing as models. And I love girls who are showed as they are lenient with mellifluent voice and pious manners. To me, the outside looking is meant nothing. A ***y girl even be inferior to an ugly girl but having good behaviors and attitude. I would marry a woman who would be as herself, not imitating to anyone else, and that woman must got well-education and impeccable characters. I'm a very devoted man, i can guârantee to say that. When i love a woman, i would love her desperatelỵ I'm very easy to be touched and hurt, so i would think carefully to making decision about chóosing a girl to love and marry with. I dont know why I'm a man, but the way my behaviors and attitudes act seemed feminine. I dont know if I can find that kind of girl i want to marry with. Girls in this life are seemed more deceptive and cruel. I feel really exhausted and despondent............